| It's 2009. I am trying my hardest to find the silver lining in things and yet again I find myself surrounded by negativity [maybe that's a sign]. I don't know what drastic transformation it'll take to finally achieve some sort of positive change in my life. I am trying to be as patient as a stone with some aspects of my life [This mainly refers to the lack of a stable relationship, or an unstable one for that matter. Either way I have needs goddamn it.].
My grandfather passed away on the 4th and I do miss him. I miss him for the man who he was before 2004. Ever since then, he had gone downhill mentally (i.e. dementia). He had been through a lot and I'm glad his suffering is over. I'm glad to have had him in my life for 22 years. On that note however, the events leading up to and including the funeral service were a mixture of stressful/awkward encounters/situations/interactions with my uncle and otherwise fun family bonding activities [shit motherfucker, Uncle Dave can sure be inflammatory at times]. I did have fun seeing family members that I hadn't seen in ages.
I'm trying not to be thoroughly unhappy with my life because there are a lot of things to be thankful for, but in spite of that I feel incomplete; almost in a way that I can never be fixed [oh the desperation, the AGONY!]. Life can't be that bad, can it?
[Uh, yeah. About that.]
I'd be annoyed too after reading this with all of the italic shit in brackets.
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| I have no idea. It's been a while since I've been on here. I don't have much to rant about or any interesting stories to tell today. Just writing to write. |
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| Take me to where the palm trees grow. Damn it. 
I think i like the wtf smilie.  | Currently Listening
Adore
By The Smashing Pumpkins
The Tale of Dusty and Pistol Pete
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| Blah. Life is exactly that. Had a great day/night, but right now I'm tired. It's too early to be tired, but whatev. Nothing exactly new in my life. School's the same. I like all of my classes, but I have a freaking huge papr in one of them I have yet to start on. I still have PLENTY of time, but yet I should hop on it soon. No luck in the guy department recently. I'll live.  |
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